Saturday, March 6, 2010

Struggling for the right words...

It happens everyday. You may find out that someone you care about deeply, is in fact, dying sooner than one would say was a proper length of life. You want desperately to help, but cannot. You try to "be there" for that person, but cannot "really" be in that person's shoes. You cannot know the feeling of a life battle that is losing.

The knowing, makes it hard to carry on, conversation, daily life, just keeping pace as you always have. How is it possible with this giant gorilla in the room with everyone. ...and EVERYONE struggling for the right words.

You clearly don't want to make things worse, but by trying so hard, do we make it worse in the struggle? Probably. But it cannot be helped. You can say too much, you can say too little. You can say the wrong thing, or even say the right thing, but at the wrong time. How many times can you say "I'm sorry" before even that rings empty and clueless. I think you just have to be honest when you do speak because the time for playing games... well even that may be a way to cope, everyone is different.

Well I find myself struggling for the right words these days.

I hate cancer.